My husband and I served as missionaries for a few years in London. The streets were lined with uneven cobblestone. It was beautiful and older than anything in America but there were obvious cracks and gaps along the path.
One day while out on a run, I fell. It was hard too. The items I was carrying flew out of my hand and fell to the ground a few feet ahead of me. The unevenness of the cobblestone had tripped up my feet and there was no recovering from my instability.
A sweet girl walked over to me collecting my phone and keys that had fallen and asked if I was ok.
I wasn’t but was too embarrassed to admit it. I thanked her for her kindness, took my things, and attempted to finish my run. Only, I couldn’t. I was in a great deal of pain. I turned around and limped the short distance home.
I hate to admit this, but I let that fall prevent me running outside for awhile. I was so worried I would trip on the cobblestone that lined the sidewalks and would injure myself or look just look plain silly falling in the midst of all the people.
Eventually, I got over my fear that was holding me and went out there and continued my running career.
This blog very much feels like stepping back out onto the uneven cobblestone. I think for so long I have wanted to write but have been afraid to do so. Putting my story and journey in written words seems scary but am I willing to live in fear of the unknown or am I willing step out onto the uneven cobblestone knowing that whatever happens, everything is going to be fine.
I was reminded by a friend today, unrelated to my writing, that it’s ok to do scary and take that risk. Sometimes I try living in the bubble I think I have created for myself and my family. I know firsthand that even though I think that bubble is there, it isn’t really. Stepping out into the unknown seems scary at first, but the more you do it and do the uncomfortable it becomes more ok. Maybe not easier, but it’s ok.
Here I am, taking the next step and we will see together where this all goes. May God’s grace cover me and my thoughts that I share with you all. Thanks for reading.